HAAAAAAAAAAAAI!

Buset. Dah lama banget ga nulis-nulis di sini hehehe. Gila ya, ga nyangka bokap-nyokap ngijinin juga gue sekolah di Bandung. Sekarang guenya yang deg-degan. Do I really want this? Do I really wanna do this? Semua orang gitu ga sih kalo tiba-tiba mimpinya mau jadi kenyataan? Takut ga, kalo seandainya ternyata mimpi itu bagusnya cuman jadi mimpi aja? Takut ga kalo ternyata hasilnya ga seperti yang diharapkan? Is it normal to feel like this? Is it?

On the lighter note, light, I swear, gue lagi ujian. Kok gue nyante ya? Biasanya kalo ujian nyante tandanya kalo ga gue udah bener-bener siap, gue pasti bakalan dapet jelek. Mudah-mudahan aja bukan pertanda buruk hehe.

Hm. Life has been... flat and boring. Yah, ga rame aja gitu. Gue kok jadi pengen ngamen ya? Aneh deh.

Oh iya, akhir-akhir ini gue jadi sering ngantuk, padahal kayanya jadwal tidur gue udah pol banget. Malemnya tidur dari antara jam 11-2 sampe jam 11-2. Kadang sih bangun jam 9, nonton CSI hehe. Terus udah gitu siangnya tidur lagi kalo ga ada ujian. Ini pertanda apa sih? Obesitas bukan? Abisnya kayanya perut gue makin buncit deh :(

But afterall I'm happy I'm finishing this high school crap. Sedihnya ya gue harus jauh dari ortu dan teman-teman (hm, not really but sometimes I felt that way.) Senengnya ya gue jauh dari negara keparat dan bakal ada kebebasan (hopefully), udah gitu kayanya hidup di sana lebih rame ya? Lebih cepet. Di sini terlalu nyante, lifeless abis. And I get to be away from my so-called friends. Lol nevermind, I'm just a sentimental bitch right now.

Oh btw, listen to Keane's She Has No Time deh. Coldplay's The Scientists. 5 stars, I tell you. Happy listening :)

Dalam satu bulan beberapa hari, tepatnya 12 Mei gue bakalan ujian. Kaya UAN gitulah, yang mana pertama kalinya dalam hidup gw. And it sucks, karena rasanya mau belajar aja MALESSS banget.

It's been one whole week and I still cant get over it: HOW IN THE WORLD HE DIDNT MAKE IT TO TOP 12?! I was so pissed off I swore I wouldnt watch the show until the WildCard round. But then I remember, I would still wanna know how Matt Giraud does, so I'm just gonna ask my friend his number and estimating the time on TV, then I'll watch.

And if Anoop doesnt make it AGAIN, I'm gonna be over with the season, and wait Anoop's album coming out :) I LOVE THE DAMN GUY SO MUCH! He's so adorable; everything about him. He's so sweet, intelligent, brilliant voice, funny, and humble. OH man he's just the dude, the next dude after the lovely David Cook :D Haha, I wonder how David Cook is doing.

OMG I CANT WAIT UNTIL THE WILDCARD ROUND. They say it's gonna air on 5th March, which is a HUGE day for Anoop as it's, well, the WildCard day and one year of Eve's death. I hope he will do VERY VERY well. I hope he'd deliver it.

Now about his first live performance. First time hearing it, to be honest, it seemed so screwed up. I dont know, but I think it's the band and the freakkin background singers. But his voice was so sweet and soulful, as usual huh :D But then I watched it over and over and over and over and over again, and guess what, it just kept getting better and better and better and better and better! And I was sure he was really actually the best performer last week. No, not Danny DEADWIFE Gokey. Not him, he's just a standard performer, it's just Paula and Kara that makes people think that way. Back to Noop-dawg, even the second time I heard him sing it already was better than the first time I heard it. I think people said he didnt do very well because they keep comparing his fun "My Prerogative" performance with that one. And I was comparing his first live performance with his UNC Clef Hangers 'Angel of Mine' performance. I think he's more comfortable with the cool dudes, but he'll get used to singing alone rite sweety :) And I swear the band shouldve not been there. Anoop shouldve brought his guys along, and Idol team shouldve allowed that for the very gifted Noop-dogg!

I was mad. And still is. I miss him so much already :'( Hey, and I found out everyone is talking about Anoop. Ellen is anoopin', Entertainment Weekly is too, Phil Stacey and Carly Smithson are also. EVERYONE IS ANOOPING! Everyone just loves to pronounce his name and say it out loud; "ANOOOOOOP!" I admit he's got a very cool name. And a brilliant nickname. Doesnt just everybody love him? :) He's so cuteeee.

I'm not gonna be over this thing if he doesnt make it to the Top 12. The world just cant miss a talent that big.

Gue jadi suka lagunya gara-gara dia :) BRING HIM BACK FOR WILD CARD AND PUT HIM ON TOP 3!! Throw out that oilrig guy, dammit!

ILY noop-dawg :)

Today. It's been 4 years. A long time ago since I left my beloved country. Since I stepped on this freaking ground for the first time.

Gue ga akan lupain hari ini. Tanggal ini. Hari ini genap empat tahun gue pergi. Hari ini genap empat tahun sudah gue di negara bangsat ini. Today is the same day than that of four years ago. Hari yang membuat gue sampe hari ini juga berubah banyak. Berubah menjadi seorang pecundang. A useless loser. Hari ini empat tahun yang lalu yang menentukan kemana gue berjalan, seperti apa diri gue sampe nanti gede. Well fate has chosen it for me; my fate: turning into a damnly useless person. Ini semua gara-gara hari ini empat tahun yang lalu. Ini semua gara-gara someone's decision. I must admit, it was a STUPID decision. This country has brought me loads and loads of disadvantages. Yes, a useless person. But then again I can't do anything. Fate has chosen this for me. For somewhat probably a good reason.

Well if later I succeed of coming back to the girl I used to be, I'd say, "I've learnt the damn hard way." It's true. A damn long way. A fucking hard way. Well I guess, keputusan seseorang hari ini empat tahun yang lalu telah membawa gue ke sini. Walaupun menjadi pecundang ini adalah takdir. Seenggaknya ada satu yang gue sadari: ternyata gue cinta banget sama Indonesia.

Oh well then, Happy Valentine's Day.