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UJIAN UJIAN

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 16:11:21 GMT

Dalam satu bulan beberapa hari, tepatnya 12 Mei gue bakalan ujian. Kaya UAN gitulah, yang mana pertama kalinya dalam hidup gw. And it sucks, karena rasanya mau belajar aja MALESSS banget.

I'm still talking about Noop-dogg

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 12:21:26 GMT

It's been one whole week and I still cant get over it: HOW IN THE WORLD HE DIDNT MAKE IT TO TOP 12?! I was so pissed off I swore I wouldnt watch the show until the WildCard round. But then I remember, I would still wanna know how Matt Giraud does, so I'm just gonna ask my friend his number and estimating the time on TV, then I'll watch.

And if Anoop doesnt make it AGAIN, I'm gonna be over with the season, and wait Anoop's album coming out :) I LOVE THE DAMN GUY SO MUCH! He's so adorable; everything about him. He's so sweet, intelligent, brilliant voice, funny, and humble. OH man he's just the dude, the next dude after the lovely David Cook :D Haha, I wonder how David Cook is doing.

OMG I CANT WAIT UNTIL THE WILDCARD ROUND. They say it's gonna air on 5th March, which is a HUGE day for Anoop as it's, well, the WildCard day and one year of Eve's death. I hope he will do VERY VERY well. I hope he'd deliver it.

Now about his first live performance. First time hearing it, to be honest, it seemed so screwed up. I dont know, but I think it's the band and the freakkin background singers. But his voice was so sweet and soulful, as usual huh :D But then I watched it over and over and over and over and over again, and guess what, it just kept getting better and better and better and better and better! And I was sure he was really actually the best performer last week. No, not Danny DEADWIFE Gokey. Not him, he's just a standard performer, it's just Paula and Kara that makes people think that way. Back to Noop-dawg, even the second time I heard him sing it already was better than the first time I heard it. I think people said he didnt do very well because they keep comparing his fun "My Prerogative" performance with that one. And I was comparing his first live performance with his UNC Clef Hangers 'Angel of Mine' performance. I think he's more comfortable with the cool dudes, but he'll get used to singing alone rite sweety :) And I swear the band shouldve not been there. Anoop shouldve brought his guys along, and Idol team shouldve allowed that for the very gifted Noop-dogg!

I was mad. And still is. I miss him so much already :'( Hey, and I found out everyone is talking about Anoop. Ellen is anoopin', Entertainment Weekly is too, Phil Stacey and Carly Smithson are also. EVERYONE IS ANOOPING! Everyone just loves to pronounce his name and say it out loud; "ANOOOOOOP!" I admit he's got a very cool name. And a brilliant nickname. Doesnt just everybody love him? :) He's so cuteeee.

I'm not gonna be over this thing if he doesnt make it to the Top 12. The world just cant miss a talent that big.

The Only One for Me

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 06:15:46 GMT

Gue jadi suka lagunya gara-gara dia :) BRING HIM BACK FOR WILD CARD AND PUT HIM ON TOP 3!! Throw out that oilrig guy, dammit!

ILY noop-dawg :)

Today

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 07:03:57 GMT

Today. It's been 4 years. A long time ago since I left my beloved country. Since I stepped on this freaking ground for the first time.

Gue ga akan lupain hari ini. Tanggal ini. Hari ini genap empat tahun gue pergi. Hari ini genap empat tahun sudah gue di negara bangsat ini. Today is the same day than that of four years ago. Hari yang membuat gue sampe hari ini juga berubah banyak. Berubah menjadi seorang pecundang. A useless loser. Hari ini empat tahun yang lalu yang menentukan kemana gue berjalan, seperti apa diri gue sampe nanti gede. Well fate has chosen it for me; my fate: turning into a damnly useless person. Ini semua gara-gara hari ini empat tahun yang lalu. Ini semua gara-gara someone's decision. I must admit, it was a STUPID decision. This country has brought me loads and loads of disadvantages. Yes, a useless person. But then again I can't do anything. Fate has chosen this for me. For somewhat probably a good reason.

Well if later I succeed of coming back to the girl I used to be, I'd say, "I've learnt the damn hard way." It's true. A damn long way. A fucking hard way. Well I guess, keputusan seseorang hari ini empat tahun yang lalu telah membawa gue ke sini. Walaupun menjadi pecundang ini adalah takdir. Seenggaknya ada satu yang gue sadari: ternyata gue cinta banget sama Indonesia.

Oh well then, Happy Valentine's Day.

Duh...

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 04:30:18 GMT

kangen sama dia.

Explosion

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 15:47:38 GMT

Tau ga, gue benci sama teman-teman gue. For me they're just a bunch of bullshits flying around in my life everyday while none of them are really a friend. They're just fools. But I thank God my friends are quite honest to me. As in... let's see.

There's this popular group in my school, and the girls are like BFF gitu deh. Setiap ketemu xoxo-xoxo, saying, "OMG you're so pretty today!" atau "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!", atau "No, you're prettier than me," atau "You're so beautiful xD" and when they turn around to some other people they whisper, "Bitch!": referring to the girl they just adulate. Atau "She's so... not it." Gitulah. Hyprocrites. Thank God, though I know my friends aren't so, well, nice, they don't bullshit.

But you know what, I still most of the time feel like they're just not my friends. Gitulah, teman dalam arti yang literal banget, alias seseorang yang menemani. Physically there, tapi ga membawa kesenangan atau kehangatan. While what I want is like teman who... basically understand each other and caring. While THEY dont really realise I'm alive or there. Tau kan kaya kehampaan yang udah lama ada, but it just stays there without intending to leave AT ALL.

This is childish, but do you know why I want to move to Bandung? It's because maybe I think I would find some friends. Seenggaknya friends who care. Makanya gue kadang mikir, bener apa ga ya keputusan gue yang bisa dibilang cuma gara-gara ego bodoh. Tapi gue manusia, butuh teman. Teman yang peduli. Bukan teman yang..................................................... bullshit. Sori, but I think they really just are.

It's like I'm just a friend. Not even a good friend, apalagi a best friend. Gue cuman seseorang di dalam kumpulan itu. Ga penting. Ga butuh diketahui kabarnya, perasaanya. THEY ARE JUST NOT FRIENDS FOR ME OKAY! IM TRULY SICK BEING HERE, BEING LIKE THIS, BEING ALONE... while I need company. They dont give me that. And I dont give them that. Jadi hubungan "pertemanan" ini mau dibawa kemana? Well I guess it's just for company at school, and byebye when graduate.

Orang-orang seumur gue punya BFF, I dont. Mereka curhat, nangis-nangis, diperdengarkan, gue enggak. It's like I'm dead and not alive. GUE BENCI KAYA GINI. IT NEVER ENDS. NEVER.

Is it karma? Because I've done A LOT OF THINGS back then, and maybe it's coming back to me these years. Ah sudahlah, yang bisa gue lakukan cuman sabar dan belajar dari ini.

Ah sori, Kok gue jadi kaya Cinlau ya ngomongnya Inggris-Indonesia, udah kaya kamus aja. GRH.

bertahan

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 13:19:21 GMT

Just a few more to go, dina. Breath.

Utter sexy!

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 13:56:55 GMT

Gue pernah denger dari mbak-mbak di salon yang bilang bahwa Bandung itu sangat menarik dan kharismatik. Daya tariknya membuat orang-orang Jakarta setiap weekend ke Bandung, which I hope they will stop this habit. Gila ya, MENGGANGGU tau. Macet-macetin aja. *maki-maki*

But then I know the reasons why I like Bandung.

Bandung itu kota paling gaya deh. Makanya juga dinamain Paris van Java. Udah gitu relatif lebih teduh dari Jakarta. Sekarang sih udah jauh lebih panas dari waktu masa kecil gue dulu. Semuanya pada ke Bandung, sih! URGH. Why can't we keep Bandung as it was huh huh huh? Menyebalkan. But then, it's unavoidable.

Tapi the most thing I admire the most is... bahasanya. Gila yah, menurut gue bahasa Bandung (bukan bahasa sundanya, bahasa Bandungnya) adalah bahasa terseksi di dunia. Bahasa gaul aja dicampur bahasa sunda, dan itu seksi. Gue suka banget ngedengerin anak-anak gaul gitu ngobrol pake bahasa Bandung. Makanya radio itu lebih menarik di sana, daripada di Ibu Kota. Anak DKI nyebut diri sendiri "gue", anak Bandung manggil diri sendiri "saya" atau "aku" walaupun sama teman-teman (selama ini sih, gue masih sering banget denger mereka bilang saya atau aku di sekolah-sekolah). Sopan kan? Sopan tapi masih gaul. Dan itu seksi. Anak DKI bilang "elo", anak kita bilang "kamu" atau "urang". Wew, see... SEKSI BOK. Aih... sumpah.

Apa ya, kata-kata dari Bandung itu memang dengan mudah dijadikan tren sih, karena sangat catchy, gaul, seksi, namun terdepan dan sopan. Orang Jakarta mungkin seneng dengernya :) Gue aja seneng banget. Never got enough of it.

Bukan maksud menghina atau apa yah, secara masih di Indonesia juga, gue bahkan lahir di sana, tapi bahasa Jakarta itu terlampau gaul dan mencoba untuk terlalu gaul. Pokoknya, berlebihan lah.

That's why, gue betah di Bandung, karena saat mereka ngomong kedengerannya seperti sedang bernyanyi. Seksi.

What's with January?

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 14:05:46 GMT

Kayanya bulan yang merana gini.
Gue ada ujian yang hampir krusial yang mana untuk belajarnya aja rasanya berat hati gini.
Bulan ini seenggaknya TIGA kali gue denger berita duka.
EMPAT deh sama perang Gaza.
Eh, lima deh sama betapa seringnya lagu Pengkhianat Cinta yang maksa itu (CinLau-nya sih) diputar di radio. GRH. Mengganggu.

Oh Januari. Dikirain awal tahun bakalan menyenangkan. Tapi lumayanlah... huhuhu.

One thing that comes to my mind regularly

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 14:34:34 GMT

Are you scared of dying? Of death?
Have you ever thought how are you gonna die, when, where?
Have you ever thought how IS dying?

Do you wait for it? Or do you not want to die?

I do not want to die. I'm scared of dying. Terribly horribly scared like shit.
Not that I do not want to die. I'm not prepared for it. Not ready AT ALL. So how?

What about you?